What happens if?

What happens if..

I am not who I am "supposed" to be?
I don't really want to just live life as I'm "expected" to?
I suddenly realise that life's too short to wonder about the 'what ifs'?
I'd rather be smart than try to look pretty?
I'd rather lean on someone though I'm generally independent..
I think life isn't supposed to be a rat-race all the way to the finish?
I don't give a hoot about being "serious" all the time?
I do indeed make a mistake once or twice?
I am more interested in living in euphoria than living long & just so-so?
I consider my happiness very important as long as it doesn't kill anyone or isn't evil?
I don't care about the superficial crap?

Too philosophical. I'm going to shut up now.

Sick.

I'm officially sick.

Sick of work, sick of preparing lunches and dinners, sick of watching CSI re-runs (Grissom, sorry to say this, but it's true..) sick of reality TV, sick of being mentally tired, in fact - sick of being sick!!!

I try to plan a vacation and what happens:
- Places I want to go do not fit into my vacation schedule
- Its playoff time
- The long weekend is also my bday.. fancy that!
- Places that I can manage to go to don't seem all that interesting
- I wonder if I even need a vacation
- I'd rather mope around the house than go someplace to mope around!

This is one of my slumps, and it seems to only get deeper. Today has been the ultimate - reminds me of the time in boring History lessons in HighSchool, I'd turn to the last page in my book and write 1-40. Then each minute I'd strike one number and go all the way till the 40 minutes are up, and we can thankfully shuffle our feet and move our behind - only to start counting down over the next boring class. Unfortunately a work day spans 9-10 hours and counting those down is insane.

I'd like to wake up to one of the following things tomorrow:
- I'm suddenly one of the richest folks around, and don't have to do any work to stay rich!
- I work as a party planner in Mauritius
- My brain starts co-operating with me to get some stuff finished at work
- The world stops spinning, but I'm the only one left on it alive
- I get into Hogwarts (by the way, I'm dying to read the new book)
- I'm a famous & adored rockstar (who is completely drug&booze free, by the way)
- Everyone else disappears
- I disappear :)

Oh well, wishful thinking!

Make-Over begins.

My poor TV finally gets to sit on something that isn't ugly, huge, heavy and blue! The monstrosity that was, has now been removed and stowed away in a corner of the kitchen. Man, that blue table was indeed ugly. Oh well, goes to show what 'FreeStuff' does to you. Now the TV has its good-looking TV stand with all the wires stowed away in the cabinet and nothing peeking out. Seriously, that corner of the living room was a mess with all those wires all over the place... Nasty stuff.

Next project: get rid of those ugly couches, and bring some decent furniture in. So, what do we do?!.. Hmm..